Tuesday, June 29, 2010

advice from an absent parent

baby talk. 1992. ana de la cruz.

Come my child

sit on my lap while i tell you a story

one of your future

a bedtime story, nothing more

don't be scared, the truth don't hurt.


you will grow up to be a beautiful young lady

smart, at times silly

your family will be proud and so should you

but you won't be smiling under your mask.


you will only do that when you're away from that place

not when you're in the freedom

but when you find that way out

with the special ones

the ones that make your smile radiate.


you're going to meet special people that enter your life

they'll slip in while the rest walk by

they'll manage to stay while the others will only linger

but there will come a time when they too leave.

you're going to feel like you are growing up all over again

as if you have to re-lose yourself all over again.


My child, there's more to life than people

but you're going to ignore that fact of life as you grow up

your beautiful memories will fuel you

the ones from when you more of a scribble than a perfected line.


And while you search my child, you will have lots of questions

and i beg of you to have patience with the unresolved

-the loose ends of your big heart and mind

i beg of you to love those questions

i beg of you to not search for the answers that cannot be given to you

you would not be able to live them in their entirety

and my child, the point of it all is to live everything.


Live the questions for days and years to come

and you will serially

someday far in the future,

not too soon, but not too late either

without even noticing

live your way into those answers.


And whether you learn that there's a bond between those you grew with

one that time cannot break

or another of life's hardships

you will see there is nothing as a real as your dream


This time your smile will burst into laughs.


And that is it my child

the ending of my story of you

don't get discouraged my dear

for it will all be okay,

if it wasn't that wouldn't be the end.

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

Bright Star


photograph: bright star. 2009 Ana De La Cruz.

Bright Star
by: John Keats

Bright star, would I were stedfast as thou art--
Not in lone splendour hung aloft the night
And watching, with eternal lids apart,
Like nature's patient, sleepless Eremite,
The moving waters at their priestlike task
Of pure ablution round earth's human shores,
Or gazing on the new soft-fallen mask
Of snow upon the mountains and the moors--
No--yet still stedfast, still unchangeable,
Pillow'd upon my fair love's ripening breast,
To feel for ever its soft fall and swell,
Awake for ever in a sweet unrest,
Still, still to hear her tender-taken breath,
And so live ever--or else swoon to death.