Tuesday, April 13, 2010

Into The Wild

"Two years he walks the earth. No phone, no pool, no pets, no cigarettes. Ultimate freedom. An extremist. An aesthetic voyager whose home is the road. Escaped from Atlanta. Thou shalt not return, 'cause "the West is the best." And now after two rambling years comes the final and greatest adventure. The climactic battle to kill the false being within and victoriously conclude the spiritual pilgrimage. Ten days and nights of freight trains and hitchhiking bring him to the Great White North. No longer to be poisoned by civilization he flees, and walks alone upon the land to become lost in the wild." - Alexander Supertramp May 1992


“I have lived through much, and now I think I have found what is needed for happiness. A quiet secluded life in the country, with the possibility of being useful to people to whom it is easy to do good, and who are not accustomed to have it done to them; then work which one hopes may be of some use; then rest, nature, books, music, love for one’s neighbor-such is my idea of happiness. And then, on top of all that, you for a mate, and children, perhaps-what more can the heart of man desire?”-tolstoy

"...you are wrong if you think that the joy of life comes principally from the joy of human relationships. God's place is all around us, it is in everything and in anything we can experience. People just need to change the way they look at things."

"I read somewhere... how important it is in life not necessarily to be strong... but to feel strong."

"Happiness only real when shared."


-Chris McCandless

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

Art

To become truly immortal, a work of art must escape all human limits: logic and common sense will only interfere. But once these barriers are broken, it will enter the realms of childhood visions and dreams.

- Giorgio de Chirico



some of my favorites:














Blick uber die Themse bei Kew Gardens auf Syon House 1760/70
View of Syon House over the Thames near Kew Gardens
Richard Wilson 1714-1782














Dom uber einer Stadt, nach 1813
Cathedral above a Town
Karl Friedrich Schinkel 1781-1841














Landschaft bei Riva am Gardassee, 1835
Landscape near Riva, Lake of Garda
Jean-Baptise Camille Corot 1796-1875













Maanenschijn: sailing at night near Rotterdam
with the St. Laurenskerk beyond
Petrus van Schendel (Dutch, 1806-1870)














Johann Christian Clausen Dahl (1788-1857)
Morgen nach einer Sturnmnacht
Morning after a Stormy Night
















Starry Night Over the Rhone 1888
Vincent van Gogh













Entre les Trous de la Memoire
Dominique Appia



















The Kiss (1907)
Gustav Klimt


















The Café Terrace on the Place du Forum (Cafe Terrace at Night)
Vincent van Gogh 1888

Friday, January 29, 2010

when walls talk

There are no particles for the filter to collect, because the grains never had a chance to develop. Today there are no pigments to sieve from the figure a black line has outlined on paper, no splashes of color to separate the image from all the others in the coloring book. The image had been delineated by pencil, perfected for so long that by now everyone else’s contains color.

She thinks it might have been your fault.

That perhaps it was all those years of protection that let nothing catalytic seep through. The solution just settled.

Motionless.

That is her.

If you wish to find her, she’ll be out finding colors.

The mind tightened or mistakenly loosened the screws of thought. What she thought, who she was, what she wasn’t, were reassured and disassembled time and time again in her thoughts. It was her mind that heard the complaints, helped her self diagnose and piece the fabricated fragments together in efforts to regain full function.

She knew it was against the rules to ignore but enough of it had been done to make her disregard no different.

Or so I heard.

Today she discovered the scar, the eraser markings on the outline you both had so carefully developed, and realized the entire image lacked color. And she told herself that with time and time away she will discover, the same way she found gifts in her room or because you found it distasteful handing her things.

Truth is, I wont find those hues so easily, I’ve never truly seen them before.

But if I do, I shall roll around and see which ones stick and form a pattern that’s absorbed beyond the surface.

Something real.

Something filterable and with color to shine.


She told me to tell you.

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Round


s** is a ball, curled.
drops falling keep rolling on
the circuitous edge.


Sunday, November 1, 2009

Inscriptions

Inscriptions

They were laying on the concrete roof peering over the edge, the town siren ringing as they looked into my bedroom window and spoke into their walkie talkies-an unnecessary act given the fact that all three of them were just inches from each other. Any stranger, not familiar with their daily routine, would have thought the boys were trying to save my cousins and I from sort of impending danger. But they were not, so every morning that summer we would kick them off the property-our nine, ten and thirteen year old voices floating smoothly behind us through the hot humid air as we chased them from our roof onto theirs.

Every day was pretty much the same in San Francisco de Macoris, a small town in the Dominican Republic. Had I known where I’d be now then, perhaps I would have treasured the island, the leaves that swayed in the timeless air, the walks down the worn out curves, the drives up and down mountains.

In the town, motorcycles hum through the roads, honking as they dodge the people that spill over and onto the streets because the sidewalks are so narrow. Women sell pastries and fruits from large wick baskets that sit perfectly on their heads. Conchos crowd up to nine passengers at once, the ones at the end holding the doors that hangs on a few wires, while the rest of the passengers fan themselves or sing along to the radios of passing cars. A young boy shines shoes in Duarte Park in front of the municipal building, carefully resting the older man’s feet on his tin coffee can, his hands, smothered in shoe shinning grease, quickly yet carefully tracing every curve of the shoe. Little old ladies, children and families pour in and out of the Santa Ana Church, the large cathedral that towers above all else. And amongst its shadow rests a house, its small gallery decorated with poinsettia trees and marble tiles.

On one day the neighborhood kids gather and play in an inflatable pool. Splashing a mixture of euphoria and water onto the people walking on the sidewalk. One small girl, her skin whiter than the rest, had her mother pulling up her blue one piece bathing suit. Had an outsider been looking the would have seen the mother trying to plead with the four year-old to wait longer for the swimming suit to fit-they would seen the mother chase the child throughout the room, past another, down a hall, across a living room and out to the gallery, all with a bottle of sunscreen in her hand. A grandfather sits as still as the mango tree that stands planted out back, watching the actions of the world around him. The tree has stood there for years, providing smiles to generations of a family, a shade for the kids that play on the roof of the home. A tree that once gave off a distinct sweet mango smell that traveled through the carved out holes of a living room wall and into the nose of the grandfather that sat on a wooden rocking chair-a smell that stuck to the mouth that politely asked his family for favors.

A picture of Mozart still hangs above his chair, the chair that used to rock to the sounds of classical music, a chair that only the once a conductor, father, grandfather and husband sat in. A chair whose wood probably smells as much like mangos as the bark of the tree that rests in the backyard. He doesn’t call the little girl anymore, the granddaughter who ran in front of him leaving drops of sunscreen on the floor, the teen he tried to impress with his English, the young woman who wishes she could tell him all. He doesn’t yell at the boys that use to bother his nieces and granddaughter, nor at beggars who walked by so that he can give them money. He never carved the letters of his granddaughter’s name into the tiles of the home for her to see when she came back. Instead all she sees when she runs after her neighbors or every time the town siren ring and she runs past the hole filled wall is the rocking chair, all she hears are the sounds of the vehicles, all she smells is the sweet mango scent, all she tastes is the humid air and all she feels is the touch of the hot ground on her feet.

In the small town people came and went. In the small town she came and went, but the coming part hasn’t been the same. The town, the palms, and farms haven’t changed. Neither have the fragments of the childhood she looks back on. But the carefree wonder has, because now its all about the preservation and remembering. Its all about the carving, the place, and the details that left the mark. Her grandfather knew that much. But I guess he never found a way to inscribe it all for me.

Monday, August 31, 2009

texts from last night

from time to time really fun online crazes come around.
texts from last night is the funniest.
fuck "fml"

my all time favorite textsfromlastnight:

(541): I just hope this isn't happening Final Destination style
(1-541): Travis Barker would totally be Devon Sawa in this scenario

(214): Don't interrupt me, I have a limited time to be high and thus be remarkably good at Pac Man

(518): you kept eating the heads off the gummy bears and screaming 'euthanized!'

(214): Some 6 yr old girl just got on my plane in St. Louis. She was wearing an I Love Canada shirt. She eyed the seat next to me and I stared her straight in the eyes and shook my head. Fuck her. Fuck canada.

(559): Psycho is an understatement. U were running around the house screaming IM UNDER THE IMPERIOUS CURSE

(216): Where the fuck is Rob at, he hasnt answered his phone in like 2 weeks.
(440): Dude Rob died 2 weeks ago wtf?
(216): Holy shit r u serious? How?
(440): Just kidding, but im pretty sure he boned your gf and doesnt want to talk to you.

(704): You ran away and I found you three blocks later lying by a dumpster because "that's where your life belongs"

(515): Busta Rhymes just yelled at me! He cut a song off and I was clapping and he looked right at me and said "don't fucking clap." I was that white guy

(519): and then she said I drew a line on her forehead with my cum and whispered "Simba"

texts from last night

texts from last night

Shared via AddThis